Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Rainbow Thoughts

I have so many thoughts running around in my head.

When it was announced that gay marriage was legalized by the Supreme Court of the United States, I nearly cried. And I got angry.

Angry because I knew I would be thrust into defending myself as a Christian who is pro-gay marriage ... who is pro-Love. Angry because this decision had to be made at all - that it had to be a fight for humans to have the right to marry other humans and receive the benefits of legal marriage. Sad that there are people in this world who somehow think that love has limits - that Jesus' love, God's love has exclusions. That there are people who don't understand that Love Your Neighbor means everyone, no matter what. And that people think that gay marriage has something to do with religion or politics or public opinion when, in fact, it has to do with basic human rights. It has to do with Constitutional rights. That's it. 

As a Mom, Aunt, Friend, Christian, and Human Being, this decision hit me hard. My friends and family members can marry whomever they want, legally. How wonderful! Time to celebrate! In this celebration, I thought of the weight some of the people I love have been carrying. At first, I thought how free they might feel, until I realized that this marriage thing is just the tip of the iceberg and there are so many more hurdles when it comes to giving basic human rights to LGBTQIA issues including employment, housing, and other areas of discrimination. 

When will we stop seeing differences and discriminating against groups of people because of these differences and start treating every human being the same? 

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Three Teen

So much change in just one year. Amazing change. Surreal change. At least from a mother's point of view. 

Another year older, but still the same heart, the same kindness, the same beautiful being emanating from her soul. Over the past year, Haley's creative spirit has soared. She expresses herself so well through her art, photography, and singing, as well as gluten-free baking, caring for children, and her various volunteer activities . She has followed her passions, sometimes making money in the process. In doing so, she is able to treat herself to equestrian camp this summer, where her love of horses will mingle with crafts and fun and feed her spirit. I love it that, during what can be crazy, questioning years, Haley is a confident, passionate young woman. 

My daughter is now officially a teenager. Thirteen. That means I have three teens in my house now. Three. Teens. In my house. I feel like I should feel overwhelmed at this, but I feel more excitement than anything. Teenagers are cool people, especially if you listen to them and encourage them along life's journey however you can.

For my brilliant daughter on her thirteenth birthday, I leave these thirteen thoughts...
1. Be yourself.
2. Nurture your sense of humor, it will come in handy.
3. Nourish your soul with things you love.
4. Pray often for others, for guidance, and for thanksgiving.
5. Talk to your mother ... about anything, even if it's embarrassing or scary. That's what I'm here for.
6. Follow your passions and dreams.
7. Ask for help when you need it, and give help when you can.
8. Celebrate your body, even if it doesn't always cooperate with your. Living with autoimmune disease can be challenging, but if you get to know your body's limits and challenge them every now and then, you may just be surprised at what you can accomplish.
9. Make sure whomever you have a relationship with respects your body and your boundaries. Don't do anything you don't want to do - stand up for yourself and your values.
10. Remember that it's ok to make mistakes - that's how we learn. And to tell your parents if you need help making a mistake right - that's what we're here for. 
11. Listen more than you speak with friends - you can speak more than you listen with your mother. 
12. Remember to nurture yourself as much as you nurture others. 
13. Stop saying mean things to your mother.
Always remember I love you!

OK, so I snuck a fourteenth thing in there, but it doesn't count because I didn't put a number before it.

Thirteen. Wow. 

Monday, June 15, 2015

Digging Out

I feel like I'm digging myself out from under life. My brain, time, money, and energy have been consumed brown-papering floors in our living room, dining room, and kitchen. And taking children and myself to eye doctor, dentist, camp physical, nutritionist, rheumatologist, endocrinologist, etc. etc. etc. appointments. And organizing two birthday parties, going to fun events like the Robin Hood Festival school day and Lake Compounce Homeschool Day. And getting tattoos. And going to the ER. And. And. And.

I've also been doing battle with my meds, my weight, my body, depression, and anxiety. Thank God that I have friends and family who are there for me whenever I should need them. It would probably be to my benefit if I were more able to call on them when I need them.

One thing I've missed over the past month - or however long it's been - is writing. I have little bits written or typed here and there. Over the next couple weeks, I'm hoping to pull out some of them and flesh them out and share some of the amazing things, as well as the insanity, that has been my life lately.

Until then, I leave you with this...

What do you do when your seven year old is up at 9:30PM and asks to shave your head? 


Yes. That's my seven year old shaving my head at 9:30PM on a school night. School nights don't mean much to our unschooling family, so that she's up at 9:30 is fairly normal. I did need my head shaved, as my falling-out hair due to a medication side effect was driving me crazy. So why not? She had so much fun!!!